The Beggar

Kinda tired. Haven’t slept much lately (what’s new right?). Woke up this morning with the feeling it was gonna me a mentally taxing day. It was. Can’t help but beat myself up. Weighs on my mind every minute of everyday. Longing. Hoping. Wishing. But worst of all is knowing. And the escape I once had. Only reminds me even more. add to fact that I’m having major sinus problems and migranes from sinus pressure. When it rains, it pours. But i know The sun will shine. Just takes time. So I’ll continue the beautiful struggle to find peace. Once found, now lost; the actions were mine, thus my heart must pay the cost.