This is what I got for Xmas. This was far and away the best gift I have ever received. It’s very fitting that SHE was the one to give it to me as well. A grand gesture of Love? I do believe so. She’ll top this too. Whether she knows it or not. She always does. I only hope I can make her feel the way she makes me feel. I venture to think it is an impossible task. That’s not negative either. It just speaks to how truly magical she is.
I had a 4 day (unpaid 😦 ) weekend, so I took a sort of mini holiday (that’s vacation to ‘Mercia). I had a lovely thanksgiving (more like Lovesgiving). But it was really a phenominal 4 days. A sign of the future, in many ways. Something to strive for, work at, look forward to. Many sacrifices must be made. And I will make them. But the time, well, it was just perfect.
**i was gonna use Styles P “Holiday” but Madonna was much more appropriate for a number of reasons 😉
Enter: Hollywood Bowl. Parking? Make right, make left, BAM! Parked. Easy peasy. Cut a shit ton of people, tickets scanned. CUTSIES! Find seats. Damn good! Had the middle ground seats. Like maybe at the edge of the 1/3rd portion of the venue. At maybe a 45angle facing stage right (our left, DUH!). We missed the openers Austra. I COULD NOT CARE LESS! I was so happy to see them on the bill. Meant we could be a little late and still see the 2 gawdly groups I came to see. And just like that IT WAS TIME!
Chromatics came out playing one of their instrumental joints, Tick Of The Clock I believe, then out walks Ruth and shit is about to get so fuckin real! Music stops, she grabs the guitar AND THEY START PLAYING “LADY”! Ruth is a murderer on guitar, btw. And Johnny is an evil master on the keys. Playing ever key and effect so perfectly. How do you play effects PERFECTLY live? Sick bastard. Then song numero deux, KILL FOR LOVE! Are you kidding me? Back to back? You guys are nuts. Start out the set with, perhaps, the 2 best songs from the Kill For Love album. Sickos. Then they made it a trifecta with Cherry. MOTHER FUCKING CHERRY! The single for which I has been waiting for the cherry red vinyl to drop for what seems like a year(it’s STILL “coming soon” sad faces). 3 songs into the set and I have heard the top 3 songs on my list and holy shit I could just die right now. They an amazing 45 minute set. I would’ve literally just went for them. I mean looking for their live show is how I even found out they were doing the Hollywood Bowl with The FUCKING xx holy balls
We got a little break while we waited for The xx to set the stage up. And I realized who reminded me of Chromatics. DWNTWN!!!! I saw DWNTWN when they opened for the gawds Body Language (did I do a Body Language recap?!?!?! Jesus Christ I’ll write one later, for realsies this time.) But yeah, they’re different bands with a different sounds but there are a lot of similar elements. Like they’re both Synth Pop, DUH.
The xx takeover, the breaks over, NIGGA! Nigga. And BANG! WE. ARE. ROLLIN! Jamie xx starts playing. Oliver and Romy walk out. They set the stage on FIRE! And they begin with TRY!! And it sounds absolutely incredible!! All night there was just something special about every song. Whether played at a slower tempo, or faster. Or improvised a few chords. Sang the song just a tad bit different. I mean ever so slightly difference. There was just a true magic, and beauty to what they were doing. I soaked in every little bit that I could. And a few times Romy and, mostly, Oliver talked to us. Thanked us. Even said he “doubly thanked” us because we missed the Breaking Bad finale to be there, anytime pal *wink & gun*. It was so genuine. We were all best friends. Every last one of us, for one night of amazingness, BEST FRIENDS! Romy is an absolute BEAST on the guitar. Like SHIT DAMN MUTHAFUCKER! FICTION< REUNION!!! ISLANDS!!! VCR!!! And then they did it. Night Time. Bliss. Pure, absolute, unfiltered. Where was Ms Benes** to be by my side? I decided that THAT was gonna be my favorite part of the night. Little did I know the best was still to come and I had absolutely no choice in the matter, for The xx were our gracious hosts and we their guests, left with no choice. They did a version of Crystalised that was beyond perfect. It makes perfect look like a dead baby. That’s how PERFECT it was. Then you think it might be cooling off but no. SUNSET comes on and it’s endearing that you wanna slit your wrists to let all the joy from your body out into the physical world. Yet and still! They go even more crazy. They start playing Swept Away and the magic is in the air. You can literally see the magic shooting for their instruments into the air. BUT ONLY THEY DON’T SING SWEPT AWAY THEY SING SHELTER OVER THE SWEPT AWAY MUSIC SWEET FANCY MOSES! Then for the 2nd verse they chill and slow the quicker tempo Shelter and start to play the actual version and Jesus F Christ I think Romy grew angel wings. They played a straight forward version of Heart Skipped A Beat. And by straight forward I mean they lit all of our faces on fire. One by one. 3rd degree burns and skin grafts, well worth it. At this point they walk off the stage. Then they dropped the curtain and BANGFUCKINGBANG There’s a god damn 30 piece orchestra (the Hollywood Bowl orchestra). We now know there will be an encore and it’s gonna be the best thing any human being has ever witnessed since the beginning of time. Sure enough they walk back out and immediately begin playing the Intro (the first album). And it’s just fucking unbelievable. It’s just 2 minutes of instrumental insanity on the album. But this? THIS?! With a full orchestra and Jamie and Romy and Oliver all playing live? It was the promised land and they were our saviors. Then OF FUCKING COURSE they did Together (from the Gatsby soundtrack). AND WOOOOOOOO! Was it remarkable. Memorizing. They kept finding new ways to captivate us. Those xx fellows, just perfection they are. To close the show? Angels. Perfect. Beautiful. Amazing. Spiritual. Religious. Magical. Enchanting. I was completely overcome. I almost shed a thug tear or 2. Almost. My eyes was like naw bro you a thug we CAINT do that. It was the stuff of legends. I’ll never forget what The xx gave me on this magical evening. Thank you.
**remember that time Jerry and Elaine made rules and got to sexing? Oh. . .
How did I get here again?
How’d I let my head sink back to THAT place?
All these hopes and ideas
Like I’m dreaming again
Gotta reprogram my mind.
Back to reality.
There you go, druw, thinking you’re somebody. Thinking you matter.
I know I’m someone. I know I matter.
I am the King.
You’re supposed to be the queen
And we shall rule with Love’s divinity.
There’s a place where dreams are reality.
I believe I’m in that place.
Now if only I could make my reality come to life; sooner than later
We will be golden.
*birdman hand rub*
how do I get her this time?
and however do I keep her . . .
Seems like we’ve been through it all already
We will battle again
But will you still be here when the smoke clears?
What happened to love without the fear?
Are the cheers just smoke & mirrors?
Are you hiding from me or yourself?
Love can’t pay the bills, but it’s a whole ‘nother level of wealth
Sickness and health? We ain’t made those vows
Yet & still, I am bound by my word to give you everything.
And give, I will. Until I have nothing.
Fall and I’ll catch you
Used to say that I’ll match you
Nay. I want to give you more than you could ever give me.
It’s not about paying back or owing you.
It’s about showing you.
Fuck the lectures
My actions will speak volumes my voice could never replicate
I pray I get the chance
Cuz it could be gone in a flash
You leave me speechless.
The words to describe your beauty are stripped from my tongue
I’m left shaking my head in disbelief.
The glow of your smile. The light in your eyes. The aura of sex you exude.
It’s all mine.
And when I step back to look. I’m left with nothing to say
What is there to say?
For love manifested in a physical form right before me
In silence we take hands.
Let our mouths meet and do all the “talking”.
Let passion tell our story.
Let love BE our story.
When we come up for air. We’re all alone in a room full of people.
They stare. In anger. Disgust. Jealousy.
Jealous of You. Me. WE.
I’ve caught my breath. That means its time to lose it again.
I have even more music to feed my heart and soul. And just might be my favorite. This UK import is absolutely mesmerizing. I’ll get discouraged by her realist lyrics. And just as well I’ll be encouraged by her words of hope. Her voice is angelic. I believe in love. I hope her music can help guide me when I need it most. If not? At least I REALLY enjoy the album. Which re-releases stateside in early June. June 5th I believe (don’t quote me).
Love I should let you go
You’ve been no good to me
No good for me
Wasting my existence chasing you
When you show no signs of life
Can’t enjoy anything
You’ve ruined everything
What’s worse is we both know where you should be
But I can’t let go
Won’t leave it alone
There’s more than just the surface.
I know you all too well
I’d much rather live in hell
So I guess I do it to myself
Keep you tucked away on the top shelf
Never to have but always to remember
JUST maybe one day we’ll dust it off
Try again? I thought you’d never ask
And you haven’t.
Life everywhere but I’m on this lonely planet
Prisoner of the mind. Chains around my heart
There’s no REstart
Staring at the sky’s blue
Only thought: I got my eyes on you
I don’t wanna be your friend
I look over and see that smile.
I look into your eyes.
It takes me back to everything I felt
But it’s not in the past
You’re in my presence and I can’t help myself
Standing by your side.
I can’t let go there’s too much history.
Loving you is simply misery
Maybe if it was reciprocated I’d be in the heavens
Instead you’ll find me below
A lost soul.