im back?

Several people have asked if i still write. Technically i don’t, but i mean, technically i do. i only write one offs for specific people and send it to them. i don’t write random abstract pieces to share with the world anymore. let alone detailed narratives of brief moments captured in time. but i suppose i not longer write on a regular basis for a few reasons.

  1. the first inspiration for writing was an outlet. mostly for my depression. i wasn’t really comfortable talking about it so i wrote about things. Not necessarily that were in relation to the depression, maybe not in a linear manner, but still an outlet. an outlet for the feelings i had bottled up for my entire life before i exploded at 23. love, lust, anger. SO MUCH ANGER. Sadness, disappointment, etc. i found an outlet and surprisingly, or not, it was a skill i had been running from for years. writing
  2. my biggest fan was/is gone. Shit, not only my biggest fan but my muse. so after that was am i to do? a person to whom at least 90% of my work was dedicated, to in some form or the other. now who am i writing for? it was and always should be me. but lets be real, it was for her too. for a while i gained a loyal following for these works. much more than music coverage ever brought me. but HIGH KEY that never mattered. it was a combination of my outlet and her reading it. it was almost like a game. And we played right into each other’s hands.
  3. now, the biggest reason i don’t write is back to number 1. It makes me emotional man. in a way I’m not quite ready to handle. i wrote something for LDS fairly recent and that shit destroyed me. i took a 3 month break before finishing it. I’m guessing I’m scared to feel that hurt for Love again.

the funny thing is that hurt will fuel another books worth of material from my heart to the paper. because i absolutely write with the blood of from my heart, sealed with a kiss. my passion isn’t dead from breaking connection with olwhatshername, instead it’s just lying dormant until I’m ready for the pain again. maybe ill never be “ready”. i just have to open up and see what comes of it. then maybe i’ll be able to bless these pages on a semi regular basis again. Maybe this my declaration of being back in the game. maybe not. i certainly have no clue. but i hope it is.

I LOVE MOVIES Art Exhibit by Dutchie and Louis XXX

Join JaQ Dutch (“Dutchie”) & Louis Cannizzaro (“Louis XXX”) at Lab Art, Saturday, November 8th 2014, from 3pm to 7pm. A collaboration exhibit of our new collection of paintings, inspired by a few of our favorite films, called I Love Movies (J’aime Les Flims) will be on display. Also, THERE’S FREE BEER


The Tontons + The Veevees @ mid-city music lounge [recap]

Went to see The Tontons and The Veevees on Friday. It was AWESOME! The venue was moved last minute to some tiny building that’s behind The Mint cuz some jerk bought out the mint, supposedly 10k cash. But aside from the amateur set up it was way cool. Made for a very intimate experience. The Veevees are like a throwback rock&roll group. Dirty and sexy. I’m all for it. They were definitely having as much fun as possible and the sexy lead singer Sophia Urista was drankin on tequila on stage. We were 2 & half Mexicans deep in that bitch lol. (Inside joke you had to be there). After The Veevees performed Sophia hung out with the crowd (and ME!!) for a bit. i told her I’d go see them at the viper room last night but I couldn’t make it 😦 sorry babe. She’s a total babe. A little raunchy and very funny. Were like 2 peas in a pod *swoon*. Quick aside: I went to a random event last summer. Dos Equis Bazaar Noir and guess who the lead singer of that band was? FUCKING SOPHIA! So fuckin cool. Anywho. The guitarist was really dope and he liked my shirt, so best friends forever. The drummer seemed like one of those coolest guys in the room type people. I didn’t get to talk to him but he was totally cool. It was oozing all him, the cool was.

Shit before I even walked in the venue I saw Tom (bassist for The Tontons) outside. He had got separated from the rest of the group. We chopped it up for 30-45 min. He’s way cool. Anyway. Right before The Tontons took the stage I touched lead singer Asli Omar and told her she was amazing. I was ready to stan but I think I kept cool. But man is she a cutie. But ITS TIME FOR THE TONTONS! The first thing I noticed was how fucking lush Adam’s guitar sounds live. He’s a fucking genius-maniac on that thing. It’s a thing of beauty. Everything about their performance was mesmerizing. Asli on vocals. Tom on bass. Justin killin the drum. But Adam truly stole the show. Asli’s voice is so unique and beautiful live. If she was on 100? Adam was on 1000. Every song sounded amazing. And my favorite song, “Pony”, sounded so ill. There was this spacey airiness live that’s not present on the recorded version. And that’s all Adam being a gawd. Man it was truly a great night. I need to attend more shows on my own.

TV Girl + Brothertiger @ Lot 1 Cafe

So last night I went to see TV Girl. They were super awesome forever. They opened with the song I had hoped most that they would perform! I like to think they did that just for me. They however did NOT do Louise which made me a little sad. But only a little because their entire set was crackin. But let me tell you, HOLY SHIT! BROTHERTIGER WAS THE BEST EVER! He was the 2nd opener and he was perfect. Kid from Brooklyn, first time in LA. Some real synth/dream pop stuff, you know the shit I LOVE. He had one jam that reminded me of Lisa Lisa and it was just beautiful. Needless to say I’m a total fan now. The kicker of the evening? My brother came with me to the show. He NEVER goes out with me, so this made it super awesome forever. It was at this hella small place in Echo Park, Lot 1 Café. IT was very hot, but very intimate. Moral of the short story: TV Girl and Brothertiger are AWESOME as shit you better get familiar

The Producer Suite: Summer Session LIVE AT THE BET EXPERIENCE

Get your ticket now. Only $20.


1:00 – 1:45 Passman Tips With Professor KG
Seven tips from the highly acclaimed ‘All You Need To Know About The Music Industry’

1:45 – 2:20 Recess with DJ Paul Printz

2:00 – 3:30 Bare Necessities II
Panelists: Battlecat, Terrace Martin, Swiff D
Producers detailing their top5recording studio items

3:30 – 3:45 Recess with DJ Paul Printz

3:45 – 5:00 What Do They Expect?
Panelists: Steve Lobel (WeWorking), DaeOne, Mir Harris(ASCAP)
Music executives let producers know what is expected as musicians pre and post production

5:00- 5:15 Recess with DJ Paul Printz

5:15- 5:45 Suite 12: Music Producer eContest – Sponsored by Propellerhead & BLENDS
Panelists: Mike & Keys, James Koo (D.R.U.G.S), Woodys Produce
Producers submit three tracks – 2 producers will press play and receive a live mentor session

5:45 – 6:00 Salutations

The Birthday Show by JaQ Dutch. 4/5

Yo come fucks with my mans and his girl. She’s an amazing artist. On April 5th Jaq Dutch is having another art show. And it’s her bday. And guess what? All you gotta do is show up and drank wit us. And maybe, just maybe, buy some dope ass art from a local who’s bout to blow up. Spend $200 now. Sell it for $330383733738389 later.



And just like that I’m going to my first NFL game to see my favorite team. The Denver Broncos (yo ass shoulda knew that tho). Not only that, but it’s a weekend trip, a mini vacation, if you will. Me & Her. Can’t believe it. She did that. All on Her own. Amazing, She is.

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JaQ Dutch Art Exhibit opens on NYE

Come support Jaq Dutch on NYE! 6pm-1am! You should go there for your Pre-party fun. But some art. I did at her last exhibit (which was FANTASTIC). And if you can’t make it. No worries. It runs until 1/13! That’s 2 weeks! Get there early though. She might have all her pieces sold by then.
216 s Alameda Los Angeles, CA