This is DEFINITELY gonna be a LONG WALK. Hit the jump if you walk with me as I have a talk with my man Joey (pause)….
“More questions, more answers
More ci smoke and more cancer
More arguing, more resistance
Its seems like the closer we get, its more distance”
You see man exactly. We FINALLY got it all out in the open. And what happen? Well, you still felt the same way (in a good way). Those answers led to more questions. And while we’re as close as we’ve been since the split. Still can’t/couldn’t close the distance
“More angles, a million different looks
Was on the same page, just in different books
There’s so much I want to say but I got no ground
Cause we ain’t break up, more like broke down”
Just like that. We’re both HERE. We ALWAYS are. We LOVE each other. It. 1. Soulmates. Same page. Different books…. Maybe one day… ?
“Now that’s pain and torture
None of this is how we planned it to be
One big insanity plea
Shit could never end amicably
I miss you trying, you probably think I don’t try too
When you stubborn and prideful
Not much is insightful
But God was trying to show me something He ain’t think that I knew
Sometimes shit that doesn’t breathe can die too”
We’re both trying. And you finally see me moving. That last bar though? Cuts me deep. But Love? Never dies.. We’ll live on.
“Were we just dreamerz?
Waiting for our shot to shoot to the moon
Were we just dreamerz?
Spending our lives trying to see this thing through
Waiting to fly away…”
We’re still Dreamerz. With similar dreams. We’ll get there. With/without each other. I’d like to think it’s “with”, in one capacity or another
“How we go from thoughts of marriage
Thoughts of me copping karats
But when the dream stopped, who knew you’d see me like a savage
That you dreamt of vacations, but only woke up with baggage
All you ever did was love me, and look at where it got you”
This totally speaks to our past like LITERALLY. Which is why I don’t blame you for not letting go of it.
“And when you wanted more, all I did was say I’m not you
Im selfish not selfless, and I say that with love
So in essence you’re asking for what I’m incapable of
So now I find I’m going over choices I ain’t even made yet
Were we clouded by good times or great sex?
Running fast towards an unknown fate
That altered when I introduced you to my unknown traits
In your dreams, seems you had me pegged as another man
But in mine, only you would understand
In our minds we were perfect
We witnessed our dream get murdered
Now reality is on trial and we both awaiting the verdict”
Something again speaking directly to our past. Thing is. You saw me for who I was, but I wasn’t ready to be HIM yet. And now that I am? It seems all too late.
“But you’ll always be close to me
Though you said this ain’t how it’s supposed to be
What we had was so real
But you said I don’t care
Never thought this day would come
You said you gave your all and was left with none
But we can both be spared
But you don’t think that’s fair, thats fair”
Yes. My man. WE both can be spared. We can make it. It’s supposed to be MORE for US. You have to let go of the past, you just need not hold it so close. Then WE can move towards our destiny
“You can’t see how you ever began to like a liar”
I broke my promise(s). I deserve that. Call me liar. It cuts me, but rightfully so.
“You lost track of all the little things that I admired
But when the peace left, I knew we might retire
Thinking man, I live upstairs, I’m something like Somaya”
(more past) The writing was on the wall. And when I got my act together, it was too late.
“Got memories, but at what point are they lost
You say we could work through it, at what point is it forced?
We shoulda never rushed
Cause it’s like now we at a point where you won’t never trust
And for me I can’t believe that’s all we ever was
The high’s gone, need a better buzz
Cause we sleep in the same bed, but we never touch”
Again. More past. The rush though? Wasn’t a problem. It was a lack of focus. I still can’t believe what I did… I’m sorry
“My solution to every beef is to revisit
Though we’ll have the same emotions we won’t be so livid
Won’t be so vivid
I think your girl secretly applauded our drama
We don’t need those critics
We owe it to go over our foundation with a keen eye
Sad part to say you never have the same dream twice”
I’m trying to tell her Joe. We it owe to ourselves. To Love. OUR love. And the thing about not reliving the same dream? This is reality, and we can still make that dream come true. As long as love is in our hearts, I’ll never let go of it….
“We let love and all its possibility
Take us from reality
Made it hard to see that
We were bound together
Just to cover up the pain
Im wishing the skies were rain
And wipe all my thoughts away
Cause im tired of dreaming”
I’m tired of dreaming it my man. I’m ready for reality. It can be so great if we can just get there. She won’t. Maybe she will. I have to believe one day she will… We are BOUND! You see that?! You have to know in your heart there’s a reason our love is so strong. I know you do. I saw it in your eyes. If only you’d allow me your heart again. We could be EVERYTHING… For now? We’re just Dreamerz…