When the woman in your dreams is sitting to your right. Looking as beautiful as she EVER has. But she’s in a glass case. You can’t touch. You’re sharing wonderful moments in time. Only you’re just sharing them but not SHARING them. Maybe she would’ve held my hand. But what’s that mean? The LOVE is in MY heart. Hers no longer. So thus, I torture myself to no end. So goes my life. One day LOVE will be mine. So I’ll appreciate the piece(s) of time we shared for what it was instead of what it wasn’t. Cuz it sure was beautiful.
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Why I said I miss you
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10 fucking years!
I been wanting this cd for 10 fucking years. The EURO version of N*E*R*D In Search Of… There are major differences. My favorite? The outro beat on Tape You. It was supposed to be a song for Justin Timberlake on Justified. Idea scraped. Now it’s a sex filled outro. I’d prefer just the instrumental without the sounds. But you know. Oh well. FUCK YEAH!
Forever was in our hearts
Were under the stars. Your eyes are like the moon. Light twinkles off you then we make contact. There’s no one else in the room. Put your head in my chest looking for my embrace. I comply. Our love is perfect. I’m ready to die. Us together. Too fuckin fly. Forever was in our hearts. NEVER to say goodbye. So many reasons to stay. So many reasons to go. Broken promises abound. Love lost it’s glow.
A start
My heart’s on strings and she knows just the ones to pull
I been tryin to write ‘us’ off like that was just a bunch of bull
Such a fool. For you. Cuz I keep waiting
Putting myself thru the ringer heart slowly deflating
Somehow you always pick it back up at just the right time
I love that you can read my mind
Or is it just a feeling?
She maybe you just don’t know and it’s just coincidence that you give me that healing
I may never have your heart but you surely possess mine
For reason at this moment that’s just fine
Cuz I’ve thrown myself out there to the mercy of the gods.
For even a sliver of hope. for the tiniest piece of you
I once had the whole thing. So now anything will do
Losing my mind. Tearing myself apart. For you
Even when I next to you were miles apart.
Somehow I need to get closer.
Even one step is a start.
Working piece ….
Sometimes it hurts to write. But it’s where we can let go of ours fears. Confront ourselves. Live out the dream. Express the pain. Beg for forgiveness. It took me a while to learn the whole ‘say what you mean and mean what you say’. Too little too late. They say it’s never too late. But it is for us. For me.
There it goes again…
Rummaging thru old emails looking for something I thought I emailed myself. It’s amazing how many things I think I email myself to check later then find out later I didn’t follow thru. Anyway. I come across another one of YOUR old emails. I’m not surprised these still exist as we sent so many back and forth. Anywho. Of course I open it. And there it is. THAT FUCKING SMILE. That beautiful ray of sunshine. That light up your soul, steal your breath, make you fall in love smile. It’s always been my favorite. *nostalgic sigh*
Love you. Love me?
I don’t think you was ever fuckin with me like that. And whatever ‘feelings’ you possess(ed) don’t mean shit. Cuz you ain’t trying to act on em. I was just a place holder. Ima hold my tongue on some other shit. And hell I could be wrong but seriously doubt it. It’s a fuckin shame too, cuz me and you fucking connect. You know it.
Such a barren wasteland love is. I don’t think Love is meant for me. I’m not meant to be loved. I’m meant to love others without reciprocation. I had a small taste of forever. Haven’t been able to let go since
Flashback(2)Romance
Tonight in a matter of seconds. I re-lived an entire night. POW! BAM! Just hit me. Fuckin crazy. This might be a long one. Hit the jump. Walk with me.
Dream(of)Love
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