**up 30 straight hrs and I only sleep for 4. Sleep don’t come easy for me.
I don’t think you was ever fuckin with me like that. And whatever ‘feelings’ you possess(ed) don’t mean shit. Cuz you ain’t trying to act on em. I was just a place holder. Ima hold my tongue on some other shit. And hell I could be wrong but seriously doubt it. It’s a fuckin shame too, cuz me and you fucking connect. You know it.
Such a barren wasteland love is. I don’t think Love is meant for me. I’m not meant to be loved. I’m meant to love others without reciprocation. I had a small taste of forever. Haven’t been able to let go since
I think a lot of where I am today is not because of understanding. It’s because of acceptance. Acceptance has furthered my growth. Was very hard. Still is. But I’ll win. Cuz I HAVE to make it..
I have some good people around me. People that care, but you all will never know what goes on in my mind. I say I don’t trust ANYONE for a reason.
All these @Rochelle_Jordan tracks I BEEN had are starting to drop. Bout time. (and Maddy a MF liar sayin he had heard a track I played when it didn’t drop till yesterday…)
With all this dope music around. I’m back in my mode of ‘I don’t wanna listen to any of this shit’. Meaning it’s a very select few things I wanna hear at specific times. sometimes I just have shuffle on cuz I hate sitting in silence.
“you took me from the reality of how much I hate being me”