Maybe it’s something you left out. Maybe you didn’t tell me everything. Maybe you lied. Maybe you had something to hide. And hid it. Did you cheat? Did you have someone else in the beginning? Were you inappropriate with someone? I have no reason to believe you did any of this. I’m just wondering if there’s a reason I shouldn’t feel the way I do. A reason to forget. A reason to be able to let go. I’ve been trapped from the moment I laid my eyes upon you. And I just wonder… I hope none of that occurred. I surely fuckin wanna know IF it did happen. But I’m just reachin. My thoughts have turned on me again. I’m dangerous gettin lost in them.
Category: inside the mind of the insane
inside the mind of the insane
YOU, Me, SHE & HER
All I wanted was to love you. Simple enough. I had it bad for you. But you always had him in your back pocket. And that was reason why we never progressed. Here I am all smitten over you. Ready to simp. The truth rears it’s ugly head. Then I believe there’s redemption at hand. But then POW. again. Same shit. I’m just a place holder. Someone to make you feel better when he treats you like shit. Cuz I just wanna lay down. Hold hands. And be next to you. But that’s his spot I’m keeping warm. Not anymore.
As for HER. We all know how I feel about HER but I’ll save what I was gonna say for another day
And YOU? Idk what to make of you still. But I’m intrigued enough
And SHE? Well SHE just just much too far. Unless SHE moves to LA it’s just NOT happening
I find myself thinking about you
Again
I don’t know what it is
You’re still in my system
I want to move on.
But really I don’t
I just want you to come around
I mean FUCK! why not?
I deserve happiness
It is YOU
Actually. It’s US
“you matter. What you think matters….”
I remember vividly those words being spoken. Where we were at the very moment. My state of mind. Where we were headed. The temperature.
From bad to worserer
Today is just one of those days. Woke up to BAD. and Continulously gets worser and worserer and worsererest.
I wish I had you to take it all away. That was always one of the best things about you. How you could make it all disappear….
REALLY?!??!
I wake up to a argument via txt with my boss. That’s surely gonna continue when I go in at 3. Stupid bitch. Some ppl just have to always be “right”…. And I cut the fuck out of my finger.
Hopefully there’s some pozole left when I get home from work tonight. I eat the hominy now. I wonder who got me to start doing that? *winks*
I’ll bite the bullet for your love
cock back and pull it for your love
Let’s find each other and find forever
I lost myself. That was always the problem. I’ll take your word that you had faith and tried to find me. More than once. But I take full responsibility for my actions. Or lack thereof. Still not sure I’ve fully found myself. Now I’m a lost soul searching for your soul.
Still wishing one day you could
Again…. We could be a fairy tale. Instead of farewell.
Fooseball and Bitches
I’ve explained basketball and football in depth to 3 ex gf’s. Fuckin 3!!!! Ridiculous. Pisses me off to no end that I nurtured them and their love for these sports (especially football) and I can’t reap the benefits!!! Idk if i have the patience to keep doing this… I wish you’d come back so we can watch the games again…. Then I got another NFL catalog. Saw this DOPE jacket. Thought “she’d look great in this”. Smh tragic… I wonder How long before you threw out that hoodie….
Damn I’ve explained boxing and MMA too. Don’t you deny my influence. FML! I’ll never win….
Something…
And I believe you when you say that you’ve lost all faith but you must believe in something something something you gotta believe in something something something
I know you believe in something. You believe in LOVE. Despite it all. I still admire you. Get inspiration from you… I can’t wait to see you makin moves and being famous. It’s surely to happen. You have all this raw talent and vision. It’s only a matter of time… Then you wont answer my calls/txts/emails. Shit that may happen next week lol (*serious face*). But I just thought of you…
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