People being nice for the sake of being nice. Not used to it.
2 ppl asked me if I was doing ok recently. NO ONE EVER ASKS ME THAT!!! not even HER, after we’ve had a convo about it. It’s not like I even would tell them if something is wrong. It’s more about people actually showing concern for me. I’m stretched thin with all these ppl’s problems, but I don’t mind taking on these burdens for you all. I really don’t. But why don’t you stop and think about me you selfish fucks. I wear myself out with Beast, but that’s my choice. I just hope it’s not for nothing in the end. Time will tell. Not to mention everything else. I’m crazy behind. I need to focus in…
Anyway, about these nice people. I don’t know how to respond to it. There’s only 1 person that’s allowed my full vulnerability. She’s earned it. Not to mention how similar we are. Which makes it easier for me to explain something that I can’t quite articulate. I just wanna sit and talk with her for hours about it all… Then the homie texts me to “have a cool day bro”. There’s nothing wrong with it. But it’s kinda gay (lol). And I don’t know that we’ve ever said anything like that to one another. So when I saw it my initial reaction was “wtf, is this guy drunk?”.
A) he prolly is
B) does it matter? He’s just being nice
C) is it some ominous sign from above?
Idk I been living below the heavens so long that even a simple kind gesture causes me to over think.
*lauren thanks for the concern
*monique thank you too. You’re the first person to ask (you’re only listed 2nd cuz I talked to L last.)
*P. we had our convo. Be patient with me. I’ve been so with you
*jewels. Idk what you got going on. But it seems you just want me to be there, I’m there.
*fresco. My nigga
*tiffany. You’re worthless and needy. And your BF is a piece of shit. But I’m still here for your crap.
*Meka. My nigga
*Bobby. My nigga.
*meech. Yo. If you move to LA though?! I hope you get that ish.
Last and never least.
**Beast. It’s always a pleasure. Can you reach a bit further? Just a bit. So we can get moving. I know you’re busy and shit but fuck that.
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