Month: May 2011

Mass confusion

I said goodbye why are you still here.
I packed it all in said no more fear.
Music playing I see you in my ears.
Why? Why I say?! Fckin why!?
You don’t care. But I do.
I can’t run.
And while I no longer feel strangled I’m still entangled.
Free from one grip. Entrapped by the other.
So now I’m even more confused. Fucker mother.
She thinks it’s for a reason.
I say treason!
Cuz if I’m here and YOU’re there
The common ground is where?
Thought so
Continue on the blind path.
Trying to avoid the wrath
we all I know I LOVE the pain.
But Is it you I love more? Terror reigns
I’ve gone insane.

Happy fuck your bday BC!

First off. I don’t expect shit from no one! Wait that’s a lie. I expect everyone to let me down.
So when my bday rolled around. I KNEW they would. BUT I been on a positivity kick. So I thought. Let’s give them a chance. Mind you. I asked for NOTHING. They came at me with tales of taking me out and gifts. Names are not necessary.
But every last person who opened they mouth did not follow thru. Big surprise right? Still. Why even bother to tell me such things if you’re not gonna follow up? Oh well.
Shouts to Fresco. He followed through. But he followed through on nothing. He just came through. And THAT is why he is my best friend. Straight up. Although he did get a noise complaint lol. My nigga though. He down for me more than ‘friends’ of 10+ years!! You know how long I’ve known fresco? Family.

*my bday was monday if you’re confused

You were my favorite song

“I guess you have no choice but to lie in bed thinking about love and there is no way of
Avoiding it.
Especially when ya heart decides to contact your mind without any prior notice.
And these headphones on my ears couldn’t play music to take my mind of this.
Because all the sounds and vocals, even rap lyrics all bring up a moment in my life that pertain to you.
And these poems I write have no other choice but to be about you. Other memories never make it into my mind’s view.
And my words, loving you; is all they really wanted to do.
I wish my creativity could reflect another topic or a moment in my life when everything seemed to mean something.
But that probably won’t happen because Love was something that I thought would make me happy, But since it didn’t last, my heart refuses to be left broken. So I will continue to play these soulful tracks until my heart decides it’s ready to love again and I will continue writing these poems until my words finally want to express my feelings for another woman.
Play on music because your playing into my soul, which guided my pen to write my thoughts better than they ever did before….. “

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