words2life – Page 19 – BananaClipse

“by my own accord i can’t accept it”

I still have nightmares about you. I wished they’d stop. I have deja vu A LOT. I don’t see these coming true though. Thus, they are nightmares.

I love you. But I don’t see a miracle on the horizon. Yet I can’t shake it. Hopeless.
I want(ed) to love you. But miscommunication, or lack thereof, seemed to derail us (story of my fuckin life). I thought maybe we could pick up where we left off. But you “can’t”… $:\$ guess not.
I used to love you. But that was YEARS ago. And although I’m glad you’ve found your way back into my life. It’s just not going past where it’s at. (but the piercing down below was a welcome surprise)

3 strikes. I’m out.

Been here

“It’ll be so much to be said but no one’ll convey it
The relationship will be over but no one’ll say it
A doomed fate, livin with who you’d
soon hate
Ex-life partners trying to co-exist as roommates
Once you go through it, you’ll believe it
And you’ll never give a woman more than you’ll want her to leave with”

from here

“When something gives you nightmares can you afford to recollect it”

Came across this all on my own! *CHEESIN*
love the beat (one of issues I’ve always had wit budden(s) his awful beat selection). Lyrically. Awesome.

Might have to get 4.5 don’t tell fresco tho. Or beast. Although I just told on myself. *hides*

Impossible?

“would you care to listen . . . “

“would you care to listen
to the sound of my heart?
it’s dark, more than likely surrounded by chalk
from darts
that was thrown by my ex-girlfriend
now she’s the reason there wont be a next girlfriend.”

Something Real For Your Mind…

At times when I’m feeling down, I wish I came across that certain call, that certain text, that certain human being standing in my presence. But when I am down I shouldn’t have to wish for your existence. For instance, if you knew me you would already know that everything would be better if you were just standing in my presence, even if it was at a distance. Just knowing you’re there would change my mood in a instant.

– NeenCrushX

How much can [you] learn from pain?

Am I scared to let go? What happens when I let go? My mind will be free right? But what then?

Continue reading “How much can [you] learn from pain?”

Workout plan

Wokeup 730. Went to the park. Played ball for about 3 hours.
Went home. Showered. Ate. Rested.
Rode my bike bout 5 miles INTO THE FUCKING WIND!
Changed. Went to yoga class.
1hr 30min. I sweated and was SUPER duper tired after. Way more than playing ball.
I love it!
Doing this for me.

GoodbyeLove

I’ve given up on you.
You’re just a fantasy. A dream.
I only see you when I sleep.
When I wake you’re not within reach.
You’re everywhere.
But here.
You ruin the music in my ears.
You destroy my favorite show.
You left me behind. I still don’t know where to go.
But Love. I have to let go.

Can’t fuckin win for losing ….

I swear I can’t win. There’s something is life that won’t let me win. Maybe there is a god and it continues to beat me down cuz I don’t believe in it. Fuckin faggot. My family continues to do me dirt. Inconsiderate fucks. I love MY family. Not the family I was born into. The family I chose >>> blood. I very upset right now.

*this picture from last night. I wore a vneck. 1st time ever. (judge me. Cuz I despise em). But I feel like it totally worked! That cardigan? Love it!

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