Category: LOSS

Even when it’s not. =\ I mean why would be about anyone or anything else for that matter? It’s not like I haven’t been planning on being a better person all along. I wanted to for myself. But I NEEDED to for you. Then I didn’t do it for either reason until after. When it was far too late for you. As for me? Well considering it’s all about you. It’s too late for me. Very well it shouldn’t be. Shit, it isn’t. But that is surely how it feels. Fresco and Meka are proud of where I’ve come. No matter the circumstance. Considering those are the only two people with whom I’m completely honest about my feelings, that’s something I should also be proud of. I can’t help but feel like my actions are ingenuine. Most of this came after conversations with you. No one can destroy me like you. No one can put me over the moon like you. And there’s no one I genuinely love conversing with, about ANYTHING, more than you. I guess I’m still adjusting to fact that we do not exist, in any capacity, in the other’s world. Something happened recenty that only you’d appreciate as I did. Guess what? I couldn’t hit you about it. So I just had to snicker and keep it moving. I’ll just have to continue growing. And moving forward. Despite the onslaught on setbacks that continue coming my way. I’ve accepted my fate. But I still aspire to accomplish my goals. Especially the new ones on plate. I’ll measure my success based on the relative happiness I achieve in life. When asked at 15 years of age what my life goal was, I said: “to be happy”. I was there. Just not for long. Let’s try sustained happiness. I love you.