It’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you
Everything I do
Category: LOSS
Tear Drops
And the music don’t feel like it did
And the music don’t feel like it did
And the music don’t feel like it did with youWhen I’m dancin’ ’round, reminds me baby of you
And I really let you down, next time I’ll be true
I’ll be true, I’ll be true, I’ll be trueFootsteps on the dance floor
reminds me baby of you
Teardrops in my eyes, next time I’ll be true
Valuable lesson
I think the best lesson I’ve finally come to realize is that none of it fuckin matters. At all.
“what about me?” (c) _______ ____ *said while crying*
Still miss me? Nah, I wouldn’t if I was you either… If I could take it all back I would, but I can’t, and you are where you are, because of things I did, I think about it often, sometimes, I just wish we could start over… Guess I’ll see you next lifetime
Where am I going? Where am I? Where the hell am I?
This weekend I learned that my mental is FUCKED. I don’t know that there’s any fixing it. For now, I’ll embrace the darkness while looking for the solution. Hoping I’m not forever lost
Cement IVs
Well. I didn’t get em. I was within SECONDS of getting them several times and was always denied. It just wasn’t meant to be. (I’m literally considering getting out the shoe the game now….). I’m still sad about it
Echoes of Slience
I listened for her answer but all I could hear was the echo of Slience. The loudest answer she could have given me.
Blue Jeans
“I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a milion years
Promise you’ll remember that you’re mine
Baby can you see through the tears
Love you more
Than those bitches before
Say you’ll remember, oh baby, say you’ll remember
I will love you till the end of time”
-LDR
Million Dollar Man
Is she singing this to me on your behalf? I think so
“You said I was the most exotic flower
Holding me tight in our final hour
I don’t know how you convince them and get them, but
I don’t know what you do, it’s unbelievable
And I don’t know how you get over, get over
Someone as dangerous, tainted and flawed as you
One for the money, and two for the show
I love you honey, I’m ready, I’m ready to go
How did you get that way? I don’t know
You’re screwed up and brilliant,
Look like a million dollar man,
So why is my heart broke?
You got the world but baby at what price?
Something so strange, hard to define
It isn’t that hard boy to like you or love you
I’d follow you down down down,
You’re unbelievable
If you’re going crazy just grab me and take me
I’d follow you down down down, anywhere anywhere
One for the money, two for the show
I love you honey, I’m ready, I’m ready to go
How did you get that way? I don’t know
You’re screwed up and brilliant,
Look like a million dollar man,
So why is my heart broke?
One for the money, two for the show
I love you honey, I’m ready, I’m ready to go
How did you get that way? I don’t know
You’re screwed up and brilliant,
Look like a million dollar man,
So why is my heart broke?
I don’t know,
You’re screwed up and brilliant,
Look like a million dollar man,
So why is my heart broke?”
-Lana Del Rey
Fin.
So ends our saga. I bet you’re happy & relieved. Nothing changes for me. I love you still. I know you still love me but refuse to take my hand and jump. You’re right though, I HAD you and I fucked up. 2nd chance?… But you won’t hear about it from me. Will we stay friends? That’s a decision you’ve always made. I promised to ALWAYS be here for you. That never changes. I’m still “gonna bring you back”. It just won’t be me that shares in your greatness. And if somehow your mind changes? You know where to find me….
Saying goodbye to love. The woman of my dreams. It. The one. Soulmate. (all words you’ve also used to describe me. Fairly recently too.. To no avail [not “woman” tho lol])
Dreams are just dreams. Reality is here. I really thought I’d have you. Smh. I really did… A fool I’ve always been
I love you.
Worse yet? I’ll never have my son…
I love you 456.
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