Category: inside the mind of the insane

inside the mind of the insane

(Love)Tour:AllAboard

Baby I know you’re damaged
As am I.
I’m trying to love you. Is it that easy to let pass by?
Rd1 was lovely and moving places
An abrupt ending left me confused
I’m waiting for rd2. it’s not my fault he left you abused
I can’t wait forever cuz my heart is fragile
Might even have some new fish on the line
But everything in due time
And ours should be now. The future is not what I live for
So grab my hand and let’s take the tour
First stop LOVE. who cares what’s after
We’ll face it together. Nothing else will matter

Lost(inOur)Love

If only you knew how I really felt
If only you knew what you did to me
I’ll admit to the implosion and self destruction
But along with hurting myself you were apart of my deconstruction
The pain was already too deep
Giving you my all was a price too steep
Cuz I lost myself in you and became misguided
Our life was so simple. And goals so attainable. Was I trying to fight it?
Love got in the way and threw us for a loop
Some nights I still reach out for you. Oops.
Puttin the pieces of my soul back together has proven a tall task
Still not complete. finding me again. Plenty of questions still I need to ask.
Myself.
So many will go unanswered and some I do not want be
Living in the dark brings a certain comfort.
But I need to find the light to set me free

Mass confusion

I said goodbye why are you still here.
I packed it all in said no more fear.
Music playing I see you in my ears.
Why? Why I say?! Fckin why!?
You don’t care. But I do.
I can’t run.
And while I no longer feel strangled I’m still entangled.
Free from one grip. Entrapped by the other.
So now I’m even more confused. Fucker mother.
She thinks it’s for a reason.
I say treason!
Cuz if I’m here and YOU’re there
The common ground is where?
Thought so
Continue on the blind path.
Trying to avoid the wrath
we all I know I LOVE the pain.
But Is it you I love more? Terror reigns
I’ve gone insane.

You were my favorite song

“I guess you have no choice but to lie in bed thinking about love and there is no way of
Avoiding it.
Especially when ya heart decides to contact your mind without any prior notice.
And these headphones on my ears couldn’t play music to take my mind of this.
Because all the sounds and vocals, even rap lyrics all bring up a moment in my life that pertain to you.
And these poems I write have no other choice but to be about you. Other memories never make it into my mind’s view.
And my words, loving you; is all they really wanted to do.
I wish my creativity could reflect another topic or a moment in my life when everything seemed to mean something.
But that probably won’t happen because Love was something that I thought would make me happy, But since it didn’t last, my heart refuses to be left broken. So I will continue to play these soulful tracks until my heart decides it’s ready to love again and I will continue writing these poems until my words finally want to express my feelings for another woman.
Play on music because your playing into my soul, which guided my pen to write my thoughts better than they ever did before….. “

I deleted your messages.


I have NEVER deleted your messages. (not on purpose at least). Since the beginning. I thought my phone froze when I did. Then I checked my memory it gave me 25+ mb of space! Fuckin crazy.
I was gonna GO IN on some shit. But why? Say what you mean and mean what you say. You told me that. A lot. So just prolly follow that like you told me. You need a ‘double life’ post. Stay frontin. But even after all that….

I love you. I know it means absolutely nothing to you. But I love you.

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