How am I supposed to feel

“demons on my right angels on my left feel like I got no life. Damn man I’m loveless.
High off the happiness I was far from the ground. I fell in the pool of misery, I fuckin drowned.
The thoughts kill me more so I hate to reflect.
But I can’t help it it’s the only thing on my mind
Tap me in my heart and whisper to me ‘we ain’t meant to be’.

Out of time. See reality and I pretend I’m blind. Overdose on memories till my shit is flatlined. But how can I be down when in reality YOU WASN’T MiNE.
Yeah I never had you but I swear I was getting close. Yeah I let you gas me up and that just gave me motivation to keep chasing you like my life depended on it
IT FEEL GOOD TO CRUSH A NIGGA SOUL BITCH DON’T IT!?
and this might be feelings I’m feeling for the moment. But what’s a moment when you FEELIN THIS SHIT EVERY MORNIN
I close my eyes and see visions in my head. Visions of me not livin or me livin with the dead
I just lay here with unachieved goals in my bed
Thinkin bout the greatness that I will never see
YOU TOOK ME FROM THE REALITY OF HOW MUCH I HATE BEING ME…”
RyshonJones

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