“Just let go and let god see if we reunite…”

“Some days I don’t wanna be seen
And some days I don’t shower, I don’t wanna be clean
Look, sometimes the truth could hurt you

Some days I’m not invincible and I feel the pressure
Like if everyone’s dependin on me, and I just stop
Then what the fuck happens?

I ain’t come this far to fall
But listen, I’m fucked up now
Don’t ask why y’all
Sometimes the best medicine is just to cry y’all
Know what I’m sayin?

Cuz it’s these type of thoughts that’ll kill ya
If you smokin with me right now, then you a good way from the filter
And I won’t front like I ain’t stressin
Sometimes I need a hug, real shit, pain shit is pain lesson

Ma, I never saw me being with you
But sometimes y’all dreams come true
I’m like your number one fan
Damn, I ain’t think Joe would see you
You’s a fantasy
I wasn’t supposed to meet you, NAW
Chances of that were so unlikely
And if we did meet, you wasn’t supposed to like me

Talkin real passionate, every time it jumped off
I’m in deep y’all she’s more than a jump off
We both catchin feelins, both startin to want more . . .”

10 min

Crash.

It’s ok for me to love you. It’s ok to hold on to whatever it is I’m holding on to (nothing). It’s not ok for me to shut down parts of me while doing so. It’s not ok for me to kill myself. I have to do for me. I have to move forward. Still keep the dream. But it’s MY life so it’s ME first. Cuz even when YOU are FIRST, it doesn’t matter (to you). I’m on a one way street of love hoping you’ll crash into me. Let’s crash baby.

I don’t deserve you

I love you,
I don’t deserve you, I don’t wanna hurt you, play with your mind

It ain’t even the puss, I got you ma
It’s usually a one way thing but baby girl got mine
Perfection is the formula when me and her combine
Like candy to the corn and yeah you’re finger lickin fine
In due time I’m sure that I can please ya, squeeze ya, weak knees ya
Need ya like you need me, and don’t mislead ya
Love’s free, but treat it wrong and pay the price

Man believe me, I ain’t ‘gon feed ya bad advice

Ride, hide yourself as if I kept you so
I love you enough to let you go
Cause on the other hand I couldn’t take it

Uhh, what type of nigga would I be to hold you up?
You need someone to hold you down

I gotta shake you out my system
And all [my] emotions mixin puts me in a tough position
Baby what I am supposed to do?
I can’t control my actions when I’m close to you
We been away too long, girl we overdue

See me and you, have a magnet in between, like it’s pullin me close
I’m like a addict for your scream, you’re fully loaded toast
A automatic with the beam, the baddest on the coast
I got to have you like the green, your swagger’s more than most

I’ve been thinkin a long time, that, wishin that you were just all mines
But, maybe this is the wrong time, yeah, that I deserve ya, I don’t deserve ya
I don’t deserve ya, I don’t deserve ya, I don’t deserve ya……..

We’re happy and we’re singin and we’re colored

Brother Fresco hit me with the knowledge again. I’m not stupid. But his opinion super matters. His view helps me see things a little more clearly. Like I said in not stupid. But I destroy myself. So sometimes I need a little help. And this morning? WOW. I appreciate having him as a friend. Confidant. He has my best interests at heart. And sharing perspectives, I’ve learned more about him. Makes me appreciate our brotherhood much more. Proud to call him family. FAMILY!

*thank you beast. You introduced me to a lifelong friend.

LoveMyPain

Pain. Every artist seems to draw the most inspiration from pain. You told me I should try love. Draw from love because it’s much more powerful. I think I get my best (or at least most favorite) material from pain. Then I thought about it more. Love is my pain. They are 1 in the same. Maybe that’s why I FEEL it. Even in the madness & sadness. I FEEL my words. I’m giving YOU a PIECE of ME. I wrote something sad. But it may be my most favorite piece. Because even if it breaks my heart. When I read it. I FEEL it. I’m proud of it.

“I GOT MY HEART RIGHT HERE, I GOT MY SCARS RIGHT HERE”

Tell me you love me

Wish you woulda held my hand.
Wish I kissed him goodbye. Told him I loved him.
My mother offered her support. Nothing more or less. What I needed.
Tiffany was happy for me. Said I was exhibiting ‘good’ emotions for a change.
Meka just listened.
People care. I care. You care. He cares.
I will cherish today (yesterday).
Good memories. Familiar feelings. Familiar situations (our typical friday remember?)
Looking for the good. Appreciating it. Keeping it close.
Thank you.

I’m now scarred

You the broad that would ride for me

Fell for the allure thas my bad you broke in somethin so secure

I’m now scarred see you make it type hard

But thanks, see relationships in a different view son

Half of me still wit you

me & you got memories
Me & you got love

Maybe it’s simple she seen all that pain I was in

I never had an issue with trust

We can get thru anything in the world if the issue’s discussed

You gettin sick nigga when u alone
And jus you & your imagination you paint a sick picture

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