LOSS – Page 4 – BananaClipse

Again? Yup…

I think I’ve supposed this more than a few time. It seems to always find it’s way back to relevance in my life. Is that bad? I hope not. With the events a few months back I probably should’ve threw it up sooner but I guess I’ve been internalizing a lot. Not mention trying to make sense of it all. The only answer is to destroy it all and rebuild from scratch. I wonder who will still be around when the smoke clears and the dust settles.

Dream missed

This happened to me the other night. Fucked my whole world up.

That dream last night awakened me from my sleep
hoping that dream was actually truth
It felt so real and it sounded like you
and I couldn’t help but feel you
does it have any meaning
did you dream of me like I did of you
did you feel for me like I feel for you
I miss you

–QueenNeen

RIP Capital Steez

I just rode my bike is this LA storm to work. Got soaked opened the tweeter and saw this! Sad shit. Early word is he committed suicide. Idk. Waiting for facts. It’s early. Smh. The kid was so ill too

Dear diary

It was cold as shit this morning. 45; and that’s before wind chill cuz it was windy as all fuck this morning. Anywho as I hopped on the 2nd train and waited for the doors to close (cuz it was cold as shit outside and the driver was taking their sweet ass time. I looked at my phone and saw this:

And the world got a little bit colder. Funny how that worked so perfect. Unplanned but so true. I smirked. Shook my head. And just continued on with the day. Cuz that’s all I can really do. Continue on

Right here I’ll always be.

Tiff and Clarice ask me about you more than I’d like. I don’t think they believe that I’m ok (am I though?). They worry. I should be grateful… But this song came on shuffle in the car. And GOD DAMN! It seems like it was yesterday when you sent that sweet sentiment about this song to me. Now? Ha! Smh.

“How’d you get me?”

I figured out the answer: I never really had you.

The end.

I’m fine.

Is it getting worse?
Walkin thru the park holding hands. Found a good bench to enjoy our drinks (mine was chai).
Had a great conversation.
WAKE UP! (I woke up)
That shit ain’t real and ain’t never happening.
It’s gone
It’s not getting worse. It’s just on my mind sometimes.
Well, you are.
On my mind
Sometimes…

RIP Das Racist

They officially announced their break up. Although I’ve speculated on it for months. They’re officially official. *tears up* at least heems is still rappering. Thanks to my internets hero Dallas Penn for the intro on their music

*this break up is almost as sad as mine. /obligatorymakethisaboutmestatement

Less than a minute

That’s all it took for my friend to tell me I look “off”. Some sort of “physical” distress, if you will. Really? That quick? Am I really projecting it that much? Did she just fancy a guess and I validated it with my mind? Or was it just the fact that I had been up since 4am and traveled in the rain? Either way that’s the excuse I went with. And she ceded that that was the cause. Maybe I am wearing it openly when I think I’m hiding it well. *shrugs*. Doesn’t matter really… Doesn’t matter at all….

I hate Tiffany

She only wants to talk about YOU

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