Author: bananaclipse

i like turtles

I killed me

Sometimes I just wanna talk you
I wanna call you
Hang with you
Sure we joke and keep it friendly
And even though you know.
I wanna tell you how I feel.
In hopes that you still feel the same.
You don’t.
You have my heart. I’m at peace with that
But why must my mind attack itself
Filled with these thoughts
For a minute I got past it.
And when I felt GOOD, when I felt BETTER
It all came back.
I closed my eyes. I saw you. I killed me
For what? For why?
Nothing.
How could you infect my system in such a short time?
You’re my drug of choice
And my withdrawals are never ending
I miss the euphoria when you pumped thru my veins
You made it all better
I couldn’t feel the pain
Stole my heart. Imprisoned my brain.
Do we still have a spark? Let alone a flame?

Will I ever be?

It’s cool that you believe in my dream with me
Believe in my dream for me
But everything must go
It’s been time to let go
I’m just not ready.
Will I ever be?
I tried to take a leap
But she wasn’t ready
It’s partly my fault
But I like to blame you for providing me with the false hope
Although we weren’t in the clear. You sure acted like it
Only to drop me quicker than a bad habit
Leavin me further in doubt
Still Wearing fresh scars from her. And now new ones from you
Pain from 2
And I’m only 1.
I’m still trying to overcome
I thought it was weakness.
I’m beginning to think it was a strong move to be give myself to you. And YOU
Where the weakness came was losing myself in you
But I never expected to lose YOU.
And I thought you were the new.
Attachment breeds expectation
So now I must keep a distance
I will not lose it again
At least not while I try and find YOU.
I find solace in my dreams which are more like nightmares
Taunting me with happy good times
I’m the beautiful boogie man
Haunting my own sleep so I can find something to live for…
You….

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