words2life
I wrote something to you. Idk that I wanna send it to you. Cuz I don’t think you deserve it. Honestly. I mean you DESERVE it, but you don’t. It’s very sincere. I’m undecided. =\ I think what I’m saying and the reason for it is another reason I’m holding on to it, for now at least…
Love
BC
Ps
Let go. Get out of your head. And just go. Be fuckin free! You have it. You deserve it. (and you know it pains me to say that for obvious reasons)
I don’t know what to say
What to do
All I have is love for you
It leaves me nowhere
cuz there is no us
Starting to wonder if there ever was
I’m only hurting myself
Yet clearly I can’t let go
It’s painfully obvious that I won’t get that 2nd chance.
Try tellin my heart that though
He knows where he belongs.
And won’t let my mind be free
Doesn’t matter what else I want to see
Blind love knows your touch
The addiction brought pain that’s far to much
To bare
You took it all away while you were here
Just as quickly you were gone.
The pain returned. Much more strong
And I’m really at a loss cuz I should have been gone from this hold so long ago
But I feel it in my soul
Something broken can’t as always be fixed
But in life you’re still in mix
You accepted my scars and I loved yours.
Peas in pod. Before we became odd.
To me you’re still same despite your claims.
Guess we didn’t have forever to be lame.
If I told I love you
How would you react?
Would you accept my love?
Would you turn me away?
Shamed I ever gained the courage to tell you my true feelings
I won’t tell you. Definitely not now
I hope I get the chance to later
Gaze into your eyes
Get lost in your smile.
And just let it go
3 simple words
With limitless meaning.
From me to you.
Pure and true.
I love you.
I’m not even gonna break it down. She knows.
“But you’ll always be close to me
though you said this ain’t how it’s supposed to be
WHAT WE HAD WAS SO REAL
but you said i don’t care
never thought this day would come
you said you gave your all and was left with none
but we can both be spared
but you don’t think thats fair, thats fair”
On my mind again
Ruling my world
As you have for so long
From the moment we went our separate ways
My mind has been gone
I haven’t looked for my sanity
Only searching for you
Is there a correlation between my insanity and my search?
Am I driving myself to the edge?
Or is it that IF we ever cross paths then I’ll be at ease ?
Can I hold on long enough to find out?
Can I let go of you long enough to see?
Does even matter? To me? Yes. To you? Idk.
I’d hope it would.
Even though you have another.
I’m searching for a way to find another..
Chance.
With you.
Beach. No sun. Moonlight. Took a dip. Now Staring at the water. It doesn’t hurt when I think about you anymore. But I STILL miss you like fuckin crazy. And you’re constantly on my mind. But at least it doesn’t hurt anymore. Sometimes.
‘Love you. Night.’
That’s all it took. To send my mind into a frenzy
First time you said It (without adding platonic LMAO) in… Well I can’t remember. Some time last year.
First read. I was confused. And although I’ve been LONGING for that to be said; no warm fuzz. Just acceptance. And smile. I really hope you meant it. And that’s just that. No extras. I miss you. It’s ALWAYS fun when we hang out. Sure I miss you in gay way too but that’s not at all what I’m talking about. We just always vibe and connect on another level. I miss that the most.
*I’ve prolly read into this waaay too much. Oh well. Just my crazy thought process. I’m going to sleep now. Hopefully. Prolly not tho
“demons on my right angels on my left feel like I got no life. Damn man I’m loveless.
High off the happiness I was far from the ground. I fell in the pool of misery, I fuckin drowned.
The thoughts kill me more so I hate to reflect.
But I can’t help it it’s the only thing on my mind
Tap me in my heart and whisper to me ‘we ain’t meant to be’.
Out of time. See reality and I pretend I’m blind. Overdose on memories till my shit is flatlined. But how can I be down when in reality YOU WASN’T MiNE.
Yeah I never had you but I swear I was getting close. Yeah I let you gas me up and that just gave me motivation to keep chasing you like my life depended on it
IT FEEL GOOD TO CRUSH A NIGGA SOUL BITCH DON’T IT!?
and this might be feelings I’m feeling for the moment. But what’s a moment when you FEELIN THIS SHIT EVERY MORNIN
I close my eyes and see visions in my head. Visions of me not livin or me livin with the dead
I just lay here with unachieved goals in my bed
Thinkin bout the greatness that I will never see
YOU TOOK ME FROM THE REALITY OF HOW MUCH I HATE BEING ME…”
RyshonJones
I long for the depression cuz at least I’ll feel something
Happiness is gone so I’m in a state nothing
I tried hating you.
I tried hating me
Now I’m praying to a god who I don’t believe
Take me into the dark or to where my mind is finally free
This is not where I’m supposed to be
This is not what I need
If I can’t find you how can I follow your lead?
I’m blindfolded traveling in uncharted waters
Thus far the new path has lead me to nowhere
I lied everytime I said I don’t care
No more fantasy
Done with delusions of grandeur
Enough flights of fancy
Time to face reality
I’m alone on this road.
And there’s no path to you
I have to find another reason to live before I become consumed
It seems I’m too late
Already doomed
BananaClipse 