Category: obsession

obsession

Leave me alone. Please

Everyone is asking me about YOU (beast). Thurzday (he remembered you from the SD show), guess I never told him we were splitsville. Good friend thurz is tho. Just seeing if I got what I was after. Meka asked. Again seeing how I was. And even fuckin Swagged out P asked. I can’t escape you. Fuck me. I don’t exist to you. But somehow some way you make it back to my life….forever in my heart.

Still drowning

In the bottle. Still can’t run from it. Shoulda said my goodbye at RTB. Now we don’t talk and I’ll never get my wish…..

Shit a year ago WE were planning my great escape aka the Great mistake. I’m still stuck. You’re long gone. Since moved on. I can’t even appreciate the good. But don’t act like we weren’t fuckin fly. You’re bitter cuz you were ALL in(just like me!) Don’t front on nigga…..act like you never considered coming back….. Lost dreams… I love you

Blame game

Who’s fault
Let’s play the blame game I love you, more
I hate you, more
I call you bitch for short
At the end of it you know we BOTH were wrong
I’d rather argue with you than be with someone else
I took a piss and dismiss it like fuck it and went and found somebody else
Fuck arguin or harvestin the feelings yo I’d rather be by my-fuckin-self
Till about 2am and I call back and I hang up and I start to blame myself
Somebody help
You wasn’t perfect but you made life worth it, stick around some real feelings might surface
Been a long time since I spoke to you
What the hell was I supposed to do I know you ain’t gettin this type of dick from that local dude
I was satisfied being in love with the lie
Who the blame you the blame we the blame for the pain
Things used to be and now they not
Anything but US is who we are
We walk away like strangers in the street, gone for eternity we erase one another
So far we came, with so much of everything. How did we leave with nothing?
Hatred and attitude tear us entirely
I can’t love you this much, no I can’t love you this much
I know you was somewhere doin ya thing

*you get the message

**my fav song on MBDTF at the moment

Music memory

Smell is supposed to evoke the strongest memories. Well I can’t smell. And prolly never will again. BUT music evokes some very strong memories for me. The first time I heard a song what I was doin. Or how a song reminds me of a moment in life (me and Ted always have moments when we doin somethin and we say it feels like were in “(insert song)”.) some songs had moments that were replaced. Some songs have several memories attached.

Example Cody Chesnutt – No One Will (which i’ve posted 16383 times) will NOW and FOREVER be linked to ‘the slow dance’. Rightfully so, as it is one of my favorite and most perfect moments/memories in life. Amazing. /poeticwaxing

So I’ll be posting songs and the memory behind them. But only as they randomly come to me. No forcing. The inspiration is that recently I’ve been singing (out loud and in my head) songs I literally haven’t heard in years. And thinking about why or what connotation the song has to me.

This song doesn’t have a grand moment attached I have just loved it since I first heard it in 05 (original Jeanius leak). If anything It reminds me of 2007 when I first started working at the internets company. When I rediscovered it one night. I effn love this song. And Jean Grae (yummy…)

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