Today really started shitty. Plans for tomorrow canceled. I was really looking forward to it. Work isn’t so pleasant and it’s been less than an hour. Really just sapped the life out of me. Maybe finishing this book will motivate me. I need to work on these various side projects.
I’m wish you’d just hit me up and take me to my happy place. As you so often have done in the past.
I was gonna write this at work. But I was interrupted by work lol. So, Thursday. Not as good as HOB. The writing, the production, overall cohesiveness, vocal arrangement…. HOB was phenomenal. That being said, Thursday is still a gem. The big thing for ms? Versatility. He flexes it hard. While not entirely cohesive, each song stands well alone. Most differ in sound and tempo. Look no further than The Birds Pt 1 & 2 to see the drastic difference in each sound scape. Then onto gone (a 2 part song in the vain of Party/afterparty) into Rolling Stone into Heaven or Las Vegas. Each with different sound and tempo. He’s showing you the range of his sound along with the deftness of his songwriting. Pop/r&b/soul/hiphop/etc. He’s a strong character that should stay around whether behind the scenes or on center stage. (I ignored the first part of the album cuz I don’t wanna write anymore lol)
*gone is prolly my favorite track. Or maybe birds pt2….
I lost ALL respect for Shane. The kid fought with NO heart NO pride. He said himself he wasn’t gonna take ANY risks. No risk no reward. And he got destroyed for it. He does NOT deserve that fine piece of ass for a GF. On the other hand manny dominated. He wouldn’t have got that 3rd rd knockdown if Shane had balance when he was hit; wouldve only been stunned. But it’s all in the game. And then when shane scored that bogus knockdown in the 10th? Manny tried to finish Shane after to prove a point. Heart of a champ. All respect and glory to the Pac Man. But the fight was a wack one. Fuck you mosley.
*still say Floyd hands it to manny. Manny was very sloppy last night and floyd woulda made him pay.
**smh @ vasquez jr’s corner. Throw in the towel? Family. His dad needs to let his son grow as a fighter. Love got in the way. Plus he was dodging and throwing still. Cmon man.
Lost a close friend. No they ain’t die. but people just show they true colors. It’s unfortunate.
Super wanted to call Nina to vent. Then I realized 1) I’m no longer in a position that I can call you late/early on random BS. And 2) you don’t give a fuckin fuck.
Merry valentines day to everyone out there. You have a valentine? LOVE EM! Even if you don’t really love em. Love em today. You never know. You don’t have love? Chin up. Your love is coming. We all deserve love. Of some sort. I love you.
My body is on a great new kick. Well not super new but anyway. Yeah. I can’t sleep more than 4 hours at a time. If I get lucky after I’m up for an hour I’ll fall back to sleep for a 30min-1hr nap. But it’s kinda annoying. Sleep at 6 up by 10. If 4 then 8. Never ending cycle. I guess its cool my stomach is much calmer tho. Was that the trade off? Idk. I guess it’s time I do something productive with these extra hours. Like stop being a fat piece of shit.
Drowning my sorrows in the sauce. Word to this bottle.
I’m fuckin loser to believe in myself and my dreams. Who the fuck am I kidding?
Kinda tired. Haven’t slept much lately (what’s new right?). Woke up this morning with the feeling it was gonna me a mentally taxing day. It was. Can’t help but beat myself up. Weighs on my mind every minute of everyday. Longing. Hoping. Wishing. But worst of all is knowing. And the escape I once had. Only reminds me even more. add to fact that I’m having major sinus problems and migranes from sinus pressure. When it rains, it pours. But i know The sun will shine. Just takes time. So I’ll continue the beautiful struggle to find peace. Once found, now lost; the actions were mine, thus my heart must pay the cost.
BananaClipse 