Day: March 26, 2014

Grasping at straws trying to find something new to fill the void
Nothing lost, still nothing gained
A new muse you could be.
A torrid love affair waiting to happen
Maybe you’re just a mirage my mind is creating for distraction.
Perhaps this longing feeling is something I’ve missed
But how about a taste?
Of everything I’m missing
In one fell swoop you could take it all away.
But what do I have to offer you in return.
My life.
For you would be revitalizing my very essence.
I’d owe it all it you
Every step. Every breath. Every word
It is yours.
But you must first give me you so that I can be me.
Once again.
Whole.

Ughck. Battling depression again 😦 shit is annoying. It like you know better but can’t stop it. All these baby steps and reminders to just be “normal”. Whatever the hell that is. And I don’t have the support system I had before. And the place where I find peace? Well…. I’ll save that for another day. This really crept up on me. Maybe I was ignoring the signs. But I didn’t expect it. At least I know. So I can fight it. Sadderdays are upon us.

*i enjoy the song. And my interpretation of the lyrics.