Zombie Pam

that post I mentioned yesterday, remember? Doesn’t matter. After the cut if you care.

So close glory we were. Our foundation was strong. But when money is the issue? All bets are off. Spoke to my cousin at the wedding and he knew as soon as I said it “it was money huh? That stress fucks everything up… Well at least you guys took a chance. Most ppl don’t”. Add in me losing me. Your impatience (which you’ve finally admitted to). Couple tweaks and who fuckin knows?!! Do I think about it? Sometimes. Often? No. Mostly cuz ppl still ask me about you. Or I meet new/old ppl. Catching up. Also self reflection. I know I’m on the right path. One day… One day… You know in ’10 around the same time the same thing happened. And again in ’11. Both times you reached out afterwards. (you really need to stop being so bipolar. You’re crazy 😉 ) Reach a little further won’t you? It’s RIGHT THERE. No? Guess not. But can’t blame me for trying. Who knows…
With what we know now, imagine what we could be if we went again?! But alas, it’s takes 2 to play the game. While I wait on the court, you’ve taken the ball to go play somewhere else. I should’ve never put the game in your hands. I should’ve taken control. Oh what could’ve been…

*this is NOT at all what I had planned. But some things are better left to myself. And/or between us.

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