May 2010 – Page 3 – BananaClipse

J Nolan – Feelin Good

Super dope artwork. Broken Dreams drops June 7th!
J. Nolan – Feelin Good

This is a poem CK (no Louis) left on my post about want to escape my own mind. It’s wonderful. It’s beautiful. Really speaks to how I feel; my state of mind. Also takes me back to middle school when I was heavy into poetry:

Where am I?
And where can I
Toss behind
My long lost mind?

There is no comfort in mine.

Fulfillment is too rare
Left alone to fight despair
No one seems to realize or care
Lids open, my real eyes see theirs

And I know they have never lost their mind.

I dive into the wreckage…

A storm of thinking, I can’t subside it,
I hope happiness glimmers inside it.

I need to find joy and need to hide it
I need to find time instead of bide it

I’ve done this before, so again I tried it.

I know my choice, but I don’t decide it.

I sought fiercely, but the storm denied it.

Mentally grasping,
Physically gasping,
I cried it:

“Where am I?!,”
Wanting to be rid of my long lost mind

Fantastic Vol 1

Homegirl let me borrow her copy of this.
I forgot how fuckin super duper ill it is. Vol2 is in my top5 ever. But god damn vol1 is amazing. Look of Love and Look of Love remix!! Fantastic 1-4!! OMFG !! Fire!! This is why hiphop is in my soul. My veins. My blood.
Slum Village forever!! Long Live (and RIP) Dilla & Baatin. Word to T3 (and Elzhi)

**during a convo MONTHS ago with soulful she said music is a much bigger part of my life than I admit. Well she’s right. That’ll be for another blog tho. Soon. Prolly.

How does it feel

I’m resigned to the fact that feelings are what they are. However, the pain? I hate it. I know there’s a 99.9% that things won’t change. But without hope and dreams, what more do I have? At this point my soul is broken, and the only thing that can fix it is out of my reach