Long busy day. Was pretty good. Someone hates me. I can’t figure why. Talked to Pam. One day.. One day…
Now excuse me I have to get up at 5am tomorrow. And I NEVER sleep….
*DAMMIT
Category: LOSS
Addiction
Wasting time
I wonder if I don’t sleep cuz I’m scared to dream. My dreams are nightmares. I can’t escape. My fears lie deep within. Am I scared to be happy. Scared to be something. Idk. I’ve always said I wasn’t scared to die. But when I thought I was? I gave in. Resigned to my fate. I was scared after. Yes. I’ll admit it. But during? I embraced it. Ready for it. Then I came to. And I could think about was you. So do I dare dream? Dream about… Dream to be…
dedication
I still believe you’re my Pam.
**you socked me right in the mouth with this one (or hit the nail on the head, whatever the expression is)
Mr Neruda’s words after the cut
Once Upon A Time We Was There
Why you gotta be so kind hearted
Why you couldn’t be a con artist
Why you couldn’t be mischievous or just a little devious the moment we first started
Why you never ask for nothin just a little time
Why you let me use yours cuz I don’t got mines
Why you always lift me up when I’m completely givin up and when niggas holla ‘what’s up’ you give a dry response
Why you givin me your last knowin you ain’t got it
Why you always buy me somethin when you go shoppin
Why you tell me that you love me why you always thinkin of me want my company rather than goin club hoppin
Why you treatin my mama like she your mama too
Why you makin promises that you’ll forever do
Whatever just to make me happy want enough to have a family
Sometimes…..
Leave me alone
Love
Leave me alone
Your physical manifestation alludes me.
I once had you in my grasp.
I now suffer without it
Never again to regain the fulfillment
Lost in my dreams
Fighting the nightmare
Light becomes darkness
Lines are blurred
Stuck in limbo
Soulmates? Or my soulmate, your heartache
My heart.
Aches.
Love
Leave me alone
Visions in darkness
It continues. The nightmares. A beautiful nightmare. Haunting my dreams.
3am pandora mashup
It’s been too long and I’m lost without you. What am I gonna do?
Said I been needin’ you, wantin you
Is your heart still mine? I wanna cry sometimes I miss you
See no one loves you more than me. And no one ever will.
I don’t wanna lose your love I don’t wanna say goodbye,
let me love you down
love will find a way
all i really want is to be happy
Ohhh I miss you baby
Oooooo I miss you bad. You’re the best I ever had
*apparently this album never made it to my portable hard drive. So for now my iPod is without my favorite Marvin album 😦
My Double Life
Sometimes. We hurt people that love us. Love people that hurt us.
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