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Caged mind

I can’t grasp the state of flux my mind is in. Walkin the tightrope that separates dream and reality. Slowly going insane. Am I out of my mind? Just in time? Or has the truth of reality taken over and forced me to live in my dreams while awake. Where am I going? Headed nowhere fast, or on the slow road to glory. . . Happiness is out of my reach.

The only way I can describe it is the slow downed movie version of she lives in my lap. But only the beat. I’m trapped. Inside. My mind?

I wanna be stuck inside that perfect moment. Live there forever. Euphoria. Warmth. Hope. Promise. But it’s gone. A bag floating in the wind. I’m out before I’m in.

Peace to the lil god

Went to dinner and drinks with 2 mothers. Exchanging stories. And thanks to my (short) time spent with my lil nigga 456 and Jose I could relate and share stories. I miss those guys. Especially 456. I understand how and why parents have that connection with they chirrens. I miss that bond with ‘my’ lil dude. Little bastard stole my heart. You’ll never know the impact you had in my life or how much I love you (and Jose).

Sweet glory

They sell these MF’s at the HOOD liquor sto by the crib now! It’s on!

Music memory

Smell is supposed to evoke the strongest memories. Well I can’t smell. And prolly never will again. BUT music evokes some very strong memories for me. The first time I heard a song what I was doin. Or how a song reminds me of a moment in life (me and Ted always have moments when we doin somethin and we say it feels like were in “(insert song)”.) some songs had moments that were replaced. Some songs have several memories attached.

Example Cody Chesnutt – No One Will (which i’ve posted 16383 times) will NOW and FOREVER be linked to ‘the slow dance’. Rightfully so, as it is one of my favorite and most perfect moments/memories in life. Amazing. /poeticwaxing

So I’ll be posting songs and the memory behind them. But only as they randomly come to me. No forcing. The inspiration is that recently I’ve been singing (out loud and in my head) songs I literally haven’t heard in years. And thinking about why or what connotation the song has to me.

This song doesn’t have a grand moment attached I have just loved it since I first heard it in 05 (original Jeanius leak). If anything It reminds me of 2007 when I first started working at the internets company. When I rediscovered it one night. I effn love this song. And Jean Grae (yummy…)