Day: October 22, 2010

I remember the FIRST time you told me that I deserve better. Me. That’s the first time anyone EVER told me that. That I deserve the world. Deserve better than the life I had. I recognize now that even after our split the advice you gave me was about ME not US. You wanted(want) me to fulfill my hopes and dreams and potential. Not for me to holler at you again when I’m good. But because I deserve it. Because I should be better and deserve better than what the past gave me. I didn’t realize that after OUR love was gone that the love you STILL had for me was positive and uplifting. I couldn’t get past the longing for an US. You’ve been amazing since day 1. And continue to be. I hope I still have an open line to you. Because as much as you’ve praised my mind, my opinion and so forth, that YOU ARE TRULY amazing. THANK YOU!! And sorry. From the bottom of my heart. I wish you true happiness as I felt with you. As I continue my journey of growth (which is completely inspired by you) you’ll ALWAYS own my heart. For better and worse. Thank you baby. I love you… Goodbye. *tears*

*maybe dream of a goodbye kiss will come true (it won’t…but a Man can dream)(better yet maybe my dream for US may one day come true[again it won’t but I’ll still dream])