Day: October 2, 2010

Thr33zy McFly – Recline

I can’t grasp the state of flux my mind is in. Walkin the tightrope that separates dream and reality. Slowly going insane. Am I out of my mind? Just in time? Or has the truth of reality taken over and forced me to live in my dreams while awake. Where am I going? Headed nowhere fast, or on the slow road to glory. . . Happiness is out of my reach.

The only way I can describe it is the slow downed movie version of she lives in my lap. But only the beat. I’m trapped. Inside. My mind?

I wanna be stuck inside that perfect moment. Live there forever. Euphoria. Warmth. Hope. Promise. But it’s gone. A bag floating in the wind. I’m out before I’m in.

Went to dinner and drinks with 2 mothers. Exchanging stories. And thanks to my (short) time spent with my lil nigga 456 and Jose I could relate and share stories. I miss those guys. Especially 456. I understand how and why parents have that connection with they chirrens. I miss that bond with ‘my’ lil dude. Little bastard stole my heart. You’ll never know the impact you had in my life or how much I love you (and Jose).