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words2life

Breaking down walls

Friends? Fuck friends!
We’re so much more.
Crossing that line only requires just a little bit more
If you’re unwilling? Then I’m gone
I can’t torture myself in your presence any longer
Over time my feelings have grown stronger.
Missing you so much when I’m standing right next to you
Longing to share with you my embrace, maybe a a kiss or two.
Hold hands. Exchange gazes. Love’s reciprocal.
Instead we share a laugh and when you get caught up in me? You fight it off. Typical.
I can’t break thru the wall this time. It has to be you
If you can’t get over it? Then we’ll go no further. What a shame
But you know when you do our love will run free, and take over the game.
Patiently waiting for you to knock down the walls
Until then I’ll be in my lane,
waiting for your call
Don’t worry I promise to break your fall

Long goner

She’s been long gone, and I’ve been a long goner
Living in constant rain, self medicate the pain
Put the knife to my wrists but never cut
That’s just a cry for help and when I take it there? I intend to go all the way
Once my heart stops bleeding, it’ll burst to flames
I needed it to mean something or else I’d be stuck in purgatory without an escape
Low and behold it meant NOTHING
Now all that’s left is a burial date
My love has died
Nothing left
Brain fried
What’s next?
It’s like I’m a zombie left to roam the earth
Feeding on the pain, in a never ending search…

**this is dedicated to Twin. NOT about her. Just dedicated to her admiration for my expression. Thank you Twin.

Blessed?


I’m not mentally prepared for today. At all. I’m checking out.

Valuable lesson

I think the best lesson I’ve finally come to realize is that none of it fuckin matters. At all.

Baby steps

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Stars

My friend. She took me to a place to see the stars. We were talking and she felt my hurt. So she took me to see the stars. It was amazing. I stood there in awe. I swear I’ve never seen anything like it. It’s was absolutely beautiful. And for those 5-10 minutes. I thought about NOTHING!! Literally nothing on my mind. I just enjoyed the stars. The glimmer. The shine. I mean FUCK you can’t see stars from my house so to see THAT?! And at a time like this? What fucking great friend. Completely out of nowhere and she forced it upon me. She’s fuckin amazing. THANK YOU! I NEEDED that.

“what about me?” (c) _______ ____ *said while crying*

Still miss me? Nah, I wouldn’t if I was you either… If I could take it all back I would, but I can’t, and you are where you are, because of things I did, I think about it often, sometimes, I just wish we could start over… Guess I’ll see you next lifetime

Where am I going? Where am I? Where the hell am I?

This weekend I learned that my mental is FUCKED. I don’t know that there’s any fixing it. For now, I’ll embrace the darkness while looking for the solution. Hoping I’m not forever lost

Back in line

Really thought we were building towards something bigger. All these talks we’ve had? How could I not be optimistic. Sure enough, I’m nowhere on your radar. Just an afterthought. I still believe. Cuz you’ve been known to shut your feelings for me out. So maybe, JUST MAYBE you’ll get passed it all and we’ll succeed…

The glowing moon in daylight

The moon still glowing in the day. Reminds me of you. You bring light to the night. Yet still shine in the day. Still, you are bigger than that. Than JUST the moon. You’re also the sun goddess. Nothing is as radiant as you in the day’s glow. That smile of yours? Well, that’s where the sun finds its power. Your beauty powers the universe, and you have no idea. The radiant colors of the sky, the majesty of the oceans, the soothing breeze on a warm day, the warm tingle from the sun’s rays; they all start and end in your name, in your being. You are the supreme. You are the ultimate. You are LOVE.

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