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Is it enough?

Posted on March 26, 2012 | Leave a comment

Let you go
At least I thought so
Now I’m holding on
There’s something there
Always has been
Probably always will be
Is it enough?
That’s the question that needs to be answered
Of course I say YES
And even if you agree
Will you act?
Will you come back?
I say YES
But I live in a fantasy world where my dreams are a possibility
In reality? I’m prepared to fall short and live in purgatory
For this is my dream and I’m determined to live it
The consequences for failure are more than worth it
My scars have shown. The wounds stay open.
They’ll get no deeper.
There’s nothing left to lose

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I don’t wanna be your friend

Posted on March 23, 2012 | Leave a comment

I don’t wanna be your friend
I look over and see that smile.
I melt.
I look into your eyes.
It takes me back to everything I felt
But it’s not in the past
It’s present
You’re in my presence and I can’t help myself
Standing by your side.
Dying slowly
Painfully
I can’t let go there’s too much history.
Loving you is simply misery
Maybe if it was reciprocated I’d be in the heavens
Instead you’ll find me below
A lost soul.

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(occupy)myMind

Posted on March 21, 2012 | Leave a comment

I thought about you last night
I thought about all the things we’ll never be
All the things we’ll never see
Together
Forever?
What a joke
No one has that kind of time
Along with you, I’ve given up all my dreams
Started facing the cold reality
Back to the survival mentality.
Fought the good fight but came out worse for the wear
Shredded to pieces and put back together
Never the same there’s too many tears

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Sad faces

Posted on March 20, 2012 | Leave a comment

This year I had to give up 2 of my dreams. Reflecting upon this makes me sad and angry.

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Posted on March 18, 2012 | Leave a comment

Back home in LA

I find myself missing you again….

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I believe(d)

Posted on March 10, 2012 | Leave a comment

***I’ve been out with the flu. Still battling it. I hope I don’t die. At least not yet**

Do you believe me when I say that from the beginning of the end I didn’t believe?
That I never had any real hope.
Not until 2 random days this past December did I have real hope
What does that say about me?
What has all this been ?
A coping mechanism?
A way to express myself in ways I’ve never expressed myself before.
Maybe all my damage built up and broke me.
And that ended with us.
Now I’m ready to rebuild.
Piece myself together.
Grow bigger than anyone ever imagined
Attain success that I never dreamed of.
But only now is it that I truly miss you.
The reasons reach far beyond what we once shared.
But I can’t lie and say that it doesn’t have plenty to do with it.
In the grand scheme of things, it doesn’t matter
It never will.
The problem is…
I wish it did

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Baffled

Posted on March 8, 2012 | Leave a comment

As to why my heart chose you. And continues to….

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What I need

Posted on March 7, 2012 | Leave a comment

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2nd guessing

Posted on March 6, 2012 | Leave a comment

I thought about you yesterday. I was about to reach out. But I didn’t. I thought about it. I 2nd guessed myself. I hate that I did that. I don’t ever do that. I act on impulse. I don’t think. I do everything with sincerity or to get a reaction. But yesterday? I didn’t do that. I HATE THAT! Why? Why did I stop short?